I'm sick again today!
I normally get sick like once in a year but somehow this year is really taking the cake for me. I've been getting sick so many times I'm beginning to lose count. Right now I'm down with a fever and flu. Yes Yes I know what you're all thinking but the Doctor today said he doesn't think it's H1N1... at least unless it doesn't get better in the next few days.
The thing about being sick is that you're forced to stay at home and rest. For me it's like putting the brakes on my usual work life and I start thinking less about business and more about my personal life. This afternoon I asked myself the question of where my personal life was going.
Sure I'm blessed with the presence of some really good friends in my life so no real complain there. I don't necessarily live the life that I used to love anymore. Much less clubbing every weekend, much less going out to bars and a lot more staying at home and watching TV with Princess.
Then I really started thinking about Princess and the relationship we have now.
Love is a really funny thing. While I've had many girlfriends before in the past, I think for the first time in my life I think I have finally began to understand what love is.
Love is when you feel for someone truly for all the good things and all that bad things that come with that someone. Love is not physical, lust is. So while I appreciate how pretty Princess is,
beauty alone isn't enough to keep us together for a long time. What keeps us together is how she makes me laugh every day, how she doesn't mind doing stupid things
how she can make me feel better every time I share a problem with her, how she knows to be strong when I am weak and how I get this little fuzzy feeling when she rubs her head against my shoulder.
Sometimes Princess gets a little jealous when I hang out or talk about a pretty girl but I gently remind her that she's missing the point. There will always be pretty girls around just like there are lots of guys who are far better looking than me out there. But what she gives me is something I think no other girl can give me.
And that is the feeling that makes me all complete.
I think that many girls out there will find the same thing in a guy. It doesn't matter so much if you're pretty or not. So if you think your bf really loves you like I do to Princess, then there is no need to feel insecure or jealous.
While I really appreciate her efforts in always making herself look good (you know, the make-up, the hair curlers), Princess will lose her beauty some day sooner or later. But unless the person who she is changes, I don't think I will ever stop being as into her as I am now. Don't tell her that though. Every day we both call each other fat and threaten to break up with each other if we put on more weight (just to keep each other on our toes) but deep inside we know that no matter how many KGs we each put on, we'll still be together.
Princess and I have only been together for slightly less than a year but for the first time in my life, I think I'm settled. Of course time will only tell where it'll go from here. But right now... my life feels complete.
So I'm happy with my personal life now. Could I please get well and go back to work?